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OMFGIMWRITINGASERIESOFPOEMSFORPRINCEANDIAMAFRAIDTOLETHERREADTHEMBECAUSEIDONTWANNASCAREHEROFF

ANDWHATIFSHEDOESNTLOVEMETHESAMEWAYILOVEHER???

**DIES**

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**kicks this emo crap** It'll come back faster than you can say "Fuck", but for now...

So I was woken up at the ungodly hour of 7am this morning after having gone to bed at 3am. Karma's such a bastard.

The reason for this was that my Mother is having surgery done today on her ear to have some cists removed. (When I say some, I mean "Holy fuck, what the hell laid it's eggs in your ear??") Mom wanted me to go. Not only did she want me to go, she wanted me to catch it on film, because she saw it done on her Mother, and just thought it was the awesomeness.

...

**vomits** Oh god.

Usually, I wouldn't mind seeing stuff like that, but... it's my Mom. Not happening.

So I'm staying home, while my Father and Mother are at the hospital. Best part about this story?

I can't get back to sleep. I might pass out by 3, but I can't do that, because Prince doesn't get out of school until then. I refuse to miss her.

On another note, I helped her with her homework last night. ^^ At first she wouldn't let me, but I kept telling her "Just let me help.", until she broke. She started calling me Soubi everytime I do stuff like that. xDD Which makes no sense at all, since her nickname from me is Love, not Loveless, and she is definately not Semei (or seme).

Okay, done now. ^///^

I think...
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So... I have a video of drunken Will and Dave ballroom dancing in my kitchen when we were taking a break from a mod that should have taken us 3 hours, and was instead, taking 5 at that point in time. xDD Dave was so drunk, it was hilarious. Will got slightly drunk, but he was the DM, so, yeah. Amanda made her dark kin character named Jaleh! ^^ She is a cleric with guns. Yep, yep, yep! While I am the only human (I think... Will's one character is human I believe...), I can also kick a fair amount of ass. Level 2 Spell Blade. Oh, and a Spell Blade is a mage with swords. I can cast spells... as I kick your ass (But not until I level up some... I think that's how it works anyway, been a while since I read the description and stuff.). And I'm from the Pirate Isles! ^^ Once I get 3rd level Spell Blade, I'm going Shadow Dancer. One word: ninja.

Ninja. From the Pirate Isles. >3

I'm not completely sure why I've decided that I should write an entry, but whatever.

...

Things are going well with Prince, I guess. i don't think it will ever work out though. Things like this usually don't. And I'm referring to the fact that me and love don't work well together. We never have...

Oh well. I'm only thirteen. Funny thing: I don't listen to pretty much any advise I didn't ask for. There is some really important stuff written on one of Angel's entries, in the comments, where people are telling me about love. I refuse to read it. Sorry, but I have to stick to my own beliefs about love, and I really don't care what you have to say.

Love is a trap. That's all I can think of it. And no matter how happy I am with Prince, I know that she'll love someone more than me. Everyone will always have someone they love more than me, even my parents have Amy. They may not love her more, but I will never have them to myself.

Lately, I've been watching Amy and Dave, and seen them drape themselves over eachother. I remember my parents telling me stories about how romantic father was, and how happy mother was. I realize that everything is happy in the beginning.

And some beginings just last longer than other's.

My parent begining lasted for a while, though I can't remember when things started going downhill. I don't think I was born yet. Amy and Dave may last for longer, but everything has an ending.

Whether or not we want it.

And all I know is I never really want to fall in love. I want to feel loved, and I want to love, but I can't fall in love. That's only gonna hurt more. So I do love. A lot. Often times more than I should, and I need to stop, because I send the wrong message to people.

While Angel tries to fill in her void with her friends, my friends are all I really have. I hope that never changes.

And to tell the truth...
I'm afraid of Prince. I'm afraid of the power she has over me.

That's it. I can't take the shit that you guys decide to dump around me. I'm tired of it. If you owe someone money, you pay them back as quickly as you can. Period. It doesn't matter what you have to give up in order to do it, you just do.

You do not, however, get mad at the person that you owe because they remind you of this, even if they're being annoying. Chances are, if they keep asking you, it's because you're not paying up.

For the ones that are owed: SHUT. THE. HELL. UP. Just because you were an idiot and lent money out to ANYBODY, does not mean we have to hear about it every day. I can understand you wanting your money. That's fine. In fact, you owe ME money. >_> I didn't give you that back rub for nothing.

I do tire of hearing the same argument over and over, so the two of you need to figure out what you're doing wrong, shut up, and fix it so I won't have to listen to you complain.

And if you dare tell me I don't have to listen to it...

BULLSHIT. You're my sisters. One by blood, the other by love. For the most part, I'm how you talk to eachother when ONE of you... >_>... decides to ignore the other.

Both of you. GROW UP.

Oh, my, what surprise. [/sarcasm]

Prince-[s]kun[/s]chan is a girl. Yes, I was expecting that. So much, it's not even funny. I didn't fall apart. Instead I sent this to one of my friends that had treated Prince badly because she lied via Gaia:

I don't care. I don't care, I don't care. Damnit, Darius! I'm not hurt! Prince didn't hurt me. It doesn't matter whether or not my Prince-kun is a boy or a girl, they're still someone I love. If they wanted me to think they were a boy, then I will. If they wanted me to think otherwise, then that's just as fine! They're still mine, reguardless, and I don't doubt who they are just because they don't look the way they said they did, because that's not what makes a person. I never doubted who Prince was because they listened and took care of me when no one else would! If that person isn't real, then let them continue to pretend, because no one else will.

But still. Some part of me believes that Love isn't lieing. And every part believes that Love is still the same as yesterday. I will always be there for Love, and vice versa.
And you might as well send that to Prince. Because that is the truth.


So Darius sent it to Prince, and Prince IMed me almost immediantly after with this:

Lee Sai: *flings herself upon you, sobbing*
Lee Sai: HANABI!!
Hana-chan: **smiles and holds you**
Hana-chan: It's okay.
Lee Sai: Gomen gomen....
Hana-chan: It's okay, Love. It's okay.
Lee Sai: i'm so sorry for not telling
Lee Sai: really
Lee Sai: truely really am
Hana-chan: I know, Love.
Hana-chan: It doesn't matter what you are, you know that.
Lee Sai: ....
Lee Sai: Hanabi....
Lee Sai: You seriously made me cry....
Hana-chan: That's good! Tears are the only true healing that humans can recieve.
Hana-chan: It's good to cry, Love.
Lee Sai: .....
Lee Sai: Hanabi... D-Don't you feel all.. upset... at all?
Hana-chan: No. Not at all. I'm sad, that you couldn't tell me. I feel like I failed you, Love.
Lee Sai: No you didn't fail me!
Lee Sai: I failed you
Hana-chan: No, Love, you didn't. You couldn't tell me. That was my fault.
Hana-chan: You will never fail me, Love. Never.
Lee Sai: ...How is it your fault?!
Lee Sai: It's mine, period...
Hana-chan: Last night, I told you that I never once doubted who you were in real life, and I still don't. I've known you long enough to know how you would react if I said one thing or another.
Hana-chan: I don't doubt that, and that's who you are
Hana-chan: And no. This isn't your fault. You couldn't tell me. That means that I did something wrong in all of this that somehow ruined your trust in me. I can't take that back, I can't fix it, but I can make it up to you.
Hana-chan: And that's all I can do...
Lee Sai: No, its my fault! I jsut don't trust people!...that's all....
Lee Sai: You did nothing wrong at all.
Hana-chan: **laughs** I know you don't trust people. But my goal was for you to be able to trust me. And because you couldn't, I failed, Love. And I'm sorry.
Lee Sai: .........
Lee Sai: Fine... If you so keep insisting...
Lee Sai: But this doesn't change anything... as you said... and for that I'm grateful...
Lee Sai: though I will from now on refer to myself as a boy... Its a shinya-factor thing. (Shinya refers to himself as a girl.)
Hana-chan: Ah, hai. I would expect nothing less of my Prine.
Hana-chan: *Prince
Lee Sai: ...Heh.
Hana-chan: **snuggles into your lap**
Hana-chan: Ya know I still love you, right?
Lee Sai: ......Arigatou...
Hana-chan: hn... do itashimashite...
Lee Sai: *huggle-snuggle*
Hana-chan: ^__^
Hana-chan: **nuzzle**
Lee Sai: *small smile*

Yes, I am fully aware that it is her fault, but in my head, it's also mine.

I'm glad that we could fix everything. She says she can trust me more than anyone else on the web now. Just hearing that makes me happy.

Yall are probably so tired of hearing me talk about this, but...





Awww~!!**fawns and fangirls** Arigatou, Prince-kun! This song means so much to me, and everything it mentions has happened between us!! Thank you! I'm glad that this song, out of all of them, reminds you of me!! **heart swells** I'll always be with you as well. This song is... perfect.


Goodnight, love.

Lullabye(Goodnight My Angel)

Goodnight, my angel
Time to close your eyes
And save these questions for another day
I think I know what you've been asking me
I think you know what I've been trying to say
I promised I would never leave you
And you should always know
Wherever you may go
No matter where you are
I never will be far away

Goodnight, my angel
Now it's time to sleep
And still so many things I want to say
Remember all the songs you sang for me
When we went sailing on an emerald bay
And like a boat out on the ocean
I'm rocking you to sleep
The water's dark
And deep inside this ancient heart
You'll always be a part of me

Goodnight, my angel
Now it's time to dream
And dream how wonderful your life will be
Someday your child may cry
And if you sing this lullabye
Then in your heart
There will always be a part of me

Someday we'll all be gone
But lullabyes go on and on...
They never die
That's how you
And I
Will be

...Oh. No. This is bad. So many things... kuso.

First off! Will asked me to the new year's party at Dave and Buster's because I was an idiot and mentioned that I had never been to a dance before. **whacks herself over the head** Bad Hana!!

For those of you that don't know, Will is the 23-year-old, friend of my sister's fiance', whom my sister went out with and was very close to, just to find out he had been in love with me, her 13-year-old sister, the whole time, and then he asked me out. And THEN he couldn't figure out why I said no, couldn't figure out what the big deal was. @__@

Well, a while ago he said he was sorry and understood. I forgave him, because what else am I gonna do? All I've ever really wanted was for people to like me, and telling him I don't forgive him is like, "NEVER GONNA TALK TO YOU AGAIN!", which... no. I couldn't do it. I really don't mind being around him, he just likes to cuddle with things. Mainly, me. =_='

**votes to ignore him** >< I HATE hurting people in any way, unless I really hate them.

On another note... WHAT AM I GONNA WEAR FOR HALLOWEEN??? I just don't go trick-or-treating anymore, so I usually sit at home and give candy to the little freaks that come by our house. Did I mention I live in a bad neighborhood? I hope our pumpkins avoid getting smashed again. ANYWAY. So, since I'm not very good with choosing costumes, somebody help me out here. Just remember time limit and lack of money. ^__^''

But, oh, so many plot bunnies and drawings, not to mention school, forums I'm keeping up with, e-mails, LJ, of course... bleh.

Okay, I need to get out of this house. At this point, I don't care who you are, where you are going, what you are going to do when you get there, I can't take it. My parents are fighting, and that means Mom feels the need to vent to me about every little thing, and I can't take it. Dad has a life, Mom needs one, and where am I? Stuck with the both of them for teachers. I can't even spend a lot of time on the computer anymore. You think I'm kidding when I say get me outta here. I'm not. At least talk to me. SOMEBODY. ANYBODY. If you're an ant, I will talk to you, just try not to get squished in the process. Things have been slow around here since school started. I was so bored yesterday I started singing Christmas songs. Badly. I don't sing badly, if I can help it. I went to Target a couple of days ago, and that was nice, if it hadn''t for the fact that we left because of our parents.

**wanders off in search of her Prince-kun** TT____TT
O.O
Holy crap. He IMed me. That's... AWESOME.

I think I may have talked to Amanda and Angel about him, but I have a Prince-kun! We haven't exchanged real names or pictures, or anything, so don't worry.

I met him on Gaia, and because Gaia hated us, we started talking on yim. We've rped as Hanabi and Sai, and we have a Gaara and Lee rp that we working on right now, but that's not the biggest thing. This guy is really nice... during our last SaiHana rp, Hanabi was angsting due to the fact she couldn't love him, and Sai wanted her to shut up, so he basically proposed to her to make her happy, and Sai tells Hanabi a story because she forces him to. The story is about a princess(Hanabi) who is betrothed, and doesn't want to be. A soldier(Sai) escorts her to the home of her soon-to-be husband. During the trip, the soldier and Princess fall in love and elope, basically. It was all very symbolic, and rather mushy, but for some reason, I liked it. After the story, Hanabi starts calling Sai her Prince, and Sai starts calling her his Princess. It was adorable, and out of character, and we don't care.

So I've talked to him a lot, and even told him a lot of stuff I don't tell you guys. He told me some stuff to that all revolved around the fact that he was suicidal at some point in time(and still kinda is). Well during mom and dad's first fight, I got on the computer and started talking to him, and I cried. I got pretty upset and started saying some wierd stuff that probably made no sense, and he read all of it. Then I said something about nobody would give a shit if I disapeared(at this point I was hysterical and influenced by more than just my parents), and that I might as well die. He unleashed his almighty hacker typing skills on me, typing far faster than I ever could. The one thing that stood out in all of his typing, that he kept repeating over and over, was that I was his only reason for staying alive at that point in his life and if I died, he'd kill himself.

I stopped bitching and started listening after that.

And then I started bitching at him, telling him if he tried to kill himself because someone like me died, I'd kick his ass. And then he told me he would cry if I kicked his ass. I told him I'd die if he cried. He said, "Isn't that what started this in the first place?"

So I guess I'm dieing anytime soon. I don't wanna see him cry.

**smiles** I wouldn't mind kicking his ass though...

So, we have a song. My Oh My by Aqua. He called it.

I found out he had a microphone and told him I had one too, and promptly turned it on, and actually started talking to him. He made me sing to him. **blushes** But it's okay, I made him sing too. The two of have discovered we both hate our voices, but like the others, and have plans to switch out our voiceboxes.

I made him promise me something today. Here:
Hana-chan (10/7/2006 5:06:53 PM): Lee-kun, you know that when you turn 18, I'll be 15
Hana-chan (10/7/2006 5:06:58 PM): right?
Lee Sai (10/7/2006 5:07:04 PM): Uh...
Lee Sai (10/7/2006 5:07:06 PM): Sure?
Hana-chan (10/7/2006 5:07:27 PM): and when I turn 18, you'll be 21
Lee Sai (10/7/2006 5:07:33 PM): ....
Lee Sai (10/7/2006 5:07:39 PM): Okay...
Hana-chan (10/7/2006 5:07:53 PM): ...
Hana-chan (10/7/2006 5:08:06 PM): Prince-kun...
Hana-chan (10/7/2006 5:08:16 PM): can you promise me something
Lee Sai (10/7/2006 5:08:54 PM): ...I hate promising things... but go ahead...
Hana-chan (10/7/2006 5:09:26 PM): Can you promise that when you move out... you won't forget me?
Lee Sai (10/7/2006 5:09:53 PM): Of course, Hanabi.
Lee Sai (10/7/2006 5:09:56 PM): That's a given.
Lee Sai (10/7/2006 5:10:03 PM): I'll always remember you. You needn't ask.
Hana-chan (10/7/2006 5:10:45 PM): I hate the thought of disapearing from everyone's minds.
Hana-chan (10/7/2006 5:10:56 PM): I don't want to be forgotten
Lee Sai (10/7/2006 5:12:52 PM): You won't be
Hana-chan (10/7/2006 5:13:32 PM): Thank you... you can't possibly imagine how much that means to me.
Lee Sai (10/7/2006 5:14:17 PM): ...I hope we stay in touch for that long, though.
Hana-chan (10/7/2006 5:15:16 PM): I hope that somehow we'll always be able to keep in touch with eachother.
Lee Sai (10/7/2006 5:15:58 PM): Agreed.
Hana-chan (10/7/2006 5:21:41 PM): ...
Hana-chan (10/7/2006 5:21:50 PM): I wish to give you a hug now...
Hana-chan (10/7/2006 5:21:56 PM): but I can't
Hana-chan (10/7/2006 5:22:04 PM): and this makes me sad
Hana-chan (10/7/2006 5:22:07 PM): ;.;
Lee Sai (10/7/2006 5:22:42 PM): Awww.
Lee Sai (10/7/2006 5:22:45 PM): *hug*
Hana-chan (10/7/2006 5:22:55 PM): **hug**
Hana-chan (10/7/2006 5:23:06 PM): ^_^
Hana-chan (10/7/2006 5:23:25 PM): it's not the same, but it'll have to do
Lee Sai (10/7/2006 5:24:58 PM): Hai...

And yeah. He's sixteen. He lives up in New York and has promised me pictures of the snow. **can't wait** We both kinda have a crush on eachother, but he told me, "These childhood crushes will never amount to the feeling of true love." I told him I understood. And I do.

Is it wrong that it makes me love him even more?

Dad pitched a temper tantrum again. And as we all know, his temper tantrums include shoving his head through the wall. No, I'm serious. There is a hole in the wall behind me where he decided his head should be.

I wish he'd grow up already.

Mom cried again. And again. But that's nothing new. She cries a lot these days, and there's nothing we can do about it. Most days I have to assign myself work for school because no one else bothers. I don't mind. I know what I can handle and how much of one thing I can do before my brain melts. Makes it... not guite easier, because I tend to challenge myself. I'm not an idiot, I know this is my education.

I'd been telling mom that dad had been assigning me the work. Made it seem like he'd been doing something for a change.

Susan has invited me over to spend time with her, Kyle, and Jonathan. It's odd, because I'm so used to spending time with Randi and Angel, sometimes Amanda. But I can't do that anymore. Odd thing is, either Randi's ignoring me, or something really wierd is happening. The only contact I've made with her is that comment she left on my journal entry about AWA. I've IMed her, and I know she's bad about replying to those, but I've called her cell two-to-four times, I've forgotten how many. She has always called me back. Not only that, but I've texted her once. No reply. At all. At first I was mad, but now I'm just scared. This hasn't happened before. I talked to Angel a couple of days ago on IM, and she dropped of my bag two days after AWA, but that's it. I understand she has work, so it's okay, I just miss her. I've been stuck in this house ever since AWA. I went shopping today, so it's a little better, but...

Oh, well. Things are either gonna get better, or they're gonna get worse.

**plays with said butterfly** ^_____^
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**places said butterfly in jar, pokes holes in lid, gives butterfly a fig, and secretly waits for it to die so that she can put it in her jar 'o' butterflies/moths**
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^^

It's a little macabre, but I like it! Just don't take the lid off... did you know that dead insects still smell like rotting carcass, even though they're insects?

...I didn't. At least... not until a couple of days ago when I opened said jar...

Lysol.
^^

I really want a Black Swallowtail, but they tend to be a rare sight around my house, and difficult to catch. But, oh, how pretty they are.

PHONE. CELL PHONE. MINE. NO ONE ELSE'S. MINE.

After waiting for so long, I now have a cell, and it is the coolest thing ever. I'm serious, this phone has the usuals, internet access, radio, camera, video camera, voice recorder, and TV, but the way it set up, the style...

Oh, god, it's beautiful. **pets her phone**

I CANNOT pay attention to anything else. This short little post took me 20 minutes to write because I'm playing with my phone. =^___^=

    The con! Was awesome. Pretty much the first thing that happened was a tux-wearin' Itachi asked me to help revive the clan.

    ...

    X3 YES!

    She also asked me to dance with her, which, unfortunately didn't happen. Stuff got in my way. Again. But, ah well! It still made me happy. Snuck into a picture with Hinee-san that night, too! Met up with a Tayuya and Lee, who I later found out were from THE guild on Gaia. Upon finding Tayu-chan, I went into Orochimaru mode, and said, "To hell with Hanabi!"

    Had phone sex with the Lee... mmm, Lee. Tayu-chan watched jealously from behind the camera. I later molested her to make her feel better. She did. Because Orochimaru's just that awesome. {3

    Ran into my Itachi-san again, and she walked me back to my room, not wanting me to go up alone. **coos** God, she was so nice! I ended up not spending the night at the hotel, and instead went home to sleep. Missed the dance that night.

    The next day, met up with that wicked awesome Itachi and Kisame, both of which called me adorable and pet me, reguardless of the fact they didn't know who I was. ^_^ Met my Tayu-chan AGAIN who was dressed as Sakura and hung out with her for a bit, but for the most part followed Tsu-sama around in her outfit. Missed the rave that night, but Randi got her costume done.

    Sunday I met up with Tayu-chan and Lee-chan almost instantly after being dropped off by Amy and Dave. Spent the whole time with them, and was sorely disapointed because that one artist that I wanted to do that commision for me was gone... T_T
Paid Angel five dollars for the commision instead, though, I don't think I want it anymore... She can keep the money. Barely saw Randi and Angel at all that day, but hell, I had fun. Lee-chan drank the most water I have ever seen... three bottles in 10 minutes. It may not be a whole lot, but considering they were ice cold, talk about brain freeze! Spent most of my time in the dealer's room, and I swear, I almost killed the only Kabuto there. GOD, he was SLOW! YOU CAN'T BE A SLOW KABUTO!! IT JUST DOESN'T HAPPEN!!

    Went on a date with my Tayu-chan that day too! ^_^

    And now I make plans to do my best and go to MTAC. HERE I COME!! Tayu-chan's Mommy may make me a big kitty costume to wear to that one! After that, Momo con (gonna try to get a pretty wig or dye my hair again! If all goes well, Teen Oro, as well as a surprise costume! probably the first I have decided to do on my own!^_^), and then I will be doing somebody from Fraggle Rock at Dragon*con, as well as some chick with grenades from Gunsmith Cats... ^_^' **plans to order some of her costumes**

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    One thing that no one, but my sister, seems to understand is that I am not so confident. In fact, I have lots of things floating around in my head that I've had for over a year, and I'm still debating whether or not people would care to hear them. Most of the things that I have said or done are in poor attempts to show people... "me". All those bursts of excitement, where I keep talking about the same shit over and over, that's me trying to get people to understand. All it does is make people think I'm horribly rambunctious, and need to take a chill pill. However! When I calm down, try to think things over, stuff like that, I become distant. And THAT is what I really am. People think that I'm open because of all the things I say, but it's not that simple. My head is filled with all sorts of stuff that, personally, I'm afraid to tell people. I'm afraid of what they'd think. I'm a people pleaser before anything. I want you to like me, whether I'm being myself or not. When people from school meet people from home, they have two different images of me.

    Having said that, I will now prove it to you. For people who I have discussed cosplays with, think about ONE cosplay that I, myself, said I was going to do because I like that character. You won't be able to. My Robin costume was suggested to me by someone off of a message board. Hanabi's costume was decided by Hinee-san. Yuffie was decided by the Kingdom Heart fans at my school. I had to play just enough of the game to figure out who she was. I wasn't going to do ANBU until someone invited me. Deidara was decided by people on Gaia. I don't even know his character yet. I'm doing I girl from Gunsmith Cats, whom I don't know, because someone asked. I only did Orochimaru because I had a Tayuya, and she wanted me to be Oro. She also wants me to do a giant cat...>>

    The point is, if I do come up with a costume or something like that, I don't just do it, I ask, because I don't want my plans to mess up everyone else's.

    When I want to do a new costume, I ask people who they think I should go as. **shrugs**

    That's just an example. It applies to everything else. Wanna know what really fucks with my head?

    When people don't tell me what to do. Period.

    It's even more messed up when you offer me something, I say "yes", of course, because I love it when people do that, and you fuck up. Not only did you mess up my plans that I worked out as to not get in the way of anyone else's, but often, you treat it like it's nothing.

    IT IS NOT NOTHING. NOT TO ME. That messes with my head so bad, I've had panic attacks, don't fucking do that to me without some warning. PLEASE. Especially when you change something really big, and DON'T FUCKING BOTHER TO CHECK WITH ME. That is not not okay.

    I have tried telling people this before, and they just say I'm being a baby. Fine, I'm a fuckin' baby, INDULGE ME. I'm thirteen, whether you all know it or not. I am technically still a child. No, I am still a child, and trust me, I hate admitting that.

    The biggest thing I want you all to understand is this: I do my best to make you happy. When you do ruin that, you break my heart. I always forgive you because I don't want to stay mad at you. I want to make you happy, and it's a whole lot easier to do that when I'm happy. Pretty much every person reading this has stomped on my feelings plenty, and whether I tell you or not, it hurts.

                                                                                      I'm tired of hurting.

Your Career Personality: Brainy, Logical, and Efficient Your Ideal Careers:

Archeologist
Astronomer
Book editor
Business manager
Civil engineer
Designer
Economist
Inventor
Judge
Scientist

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You are SASUKE!

"Stylish. Skillful. Sexy. You've never had trouble getting people to notice you even if sometimes you wish they wouldn't. At least you can always feel happy knowing you excel at whatever you try. Now if you could only kill that brother of yours..."

...WHAT?? >_> Let's try this again...



You are NEJI!

"Proud. Driven. You fix on your objective and stick to it. Some people may see you as cold or even cruel, but they just can't see past your prickly surface. At heart, you care about your companions and may be a little more sensitive than you'd like to admit."

What's this? WHAT IS THIS??? Now what? FINE. I'm an angsty bitch, now go away.

Tsu-sama kicked Sasuke...





WITH HER TOE.

   So bored, it's not even funny. I have been reading up on Georgia History. Dad wants to teach me as fast as possible so I can become a High school student and we can enroll me in a private school. He really doesn't want to teach me. At all. Then again, no one really teaches me. Mom sat down with me that first day and gave me some of the best sentences I've ever had. "The cat shit on the towel." and "I like to go simmin' with bowlegged women, and swim between their knees."

   After that, Mom had work, and Dad's always going places. The just assign me some work and leave. I really need to work on my Math. I haven't touched it in days. My Gramma has assigned books to me; the Illiad and the Odyssey, for example, as well as A Midsummer's Night Stream by Shakespear. There are also some poems by Edgar Allen Poe.

   Busy, busy, busy.

   We haven't done anything in Science yet, but Susan is sending over some materials to use. They're a bit old, as in 1976, or something, but it's all I've got until Dad gets off his ass and takes me to get books.

   I'm getting out a little more now, but it's still not enough. I woke up today and went downstairs to eat, and was disgusted by the state of the kitchen. Gramma asked why I was cleaning, and I told her, "Because it's disgusting!" She said it was just messy. 

   For those of you who don't really know me, if I start cleaning within 30 minutes of waking up, somethings disgusting.

   I need to shower now, so...

WATER FIIIIIIIIIIIGHT!!!!

**mocks trumpet flare**

ATTAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK!!!

   Here's the deal! My nameless kitty that I've been obsessing over needs a name. Everyone that wants to may post a name suggestion. Then we'll have a contest of sorts. Person that wins said contest, their name will be used for the kitty. 

   Rules: You are not allowed to enter a name like dog-bait(**cough**AMY**cough**). I just can't take the risk. Boyfriends are also not allowed to gut my kitty(**cough**DAVE**cough**). 

   LET THE GAMES BEGIN!!!

First entry made by Tsu-sama: Floppy
Second entry made by Hinee-san: Adorable Phsyco Kyo
Third entry made by Aneki: Cali